Poker Chips

Pull your pants up

The tide is soon to go in

Poker face on

Still I'm going all in

Because the hand I was dealt bro

Will stick to you like some damn velcro

You can't shake it, can't take it

Authentic, can't fake it

Fresh

No way for you to bake it

And it's mine all mine, no way you can take it

Can't escape it

You already put your chips in

Better hope the turn becomes your bestfriend

Nope

In-my-favor

Bet more and you'll lose more

I'll use your chips on the strip

To a homeless man who's in desperate need of a savior

I'm not Jesus

But if I was you'd be praying to me for a King

I know you need this

But I don't see this

Being the card floating down the river

The chips I put in I need back

1/16 of an Native American giver

Take this loss to your liver

Shake and quiver

Cold I am

I'm Mr. Winter

Eating off your plate so thank you for dinner

I am a winner

But I am not perfect

Because I am a sinner

I balance that by being a giver

Giver

Give her

Nathan

My poker face is more of a mask like Jason

Here comes the river card, no waiting

You thought it was a King

Nope a Joker

Sadly mistaken.

Short Breaths

Missing those times

Dorm room memory

Crack House enemy

Stubborn mentality

What are you trying to get out of me?

Mutual tears

Disclosed fears

Open hearts

Closed ears

Ajar minds

What are you trying to find?

Blunts and booze

Movies of many genres

So much food

Face to face meetings with your vagina

Scattered thoughts

Unclear motives

Malicious objectives

Playing detective

You were supposed to be my protection!!

There when he was lost

Paying for love

At such a cheap cost

Lost in the serious

At times completely oblivious to the matter.

Puzzle pieces that won't fit

In and out of the same shit

Lack of confidence

Trust wasn't always it

Communication lacking

I sent you packing

But not because I asked but because you ran out of gas.

I hope that I'm not your last

But at times

I feel like I was your first

At you finding love for what it's worth

Left as two spirits

Just roaming Mother Earth.

Crumbles To Ground

Now single for the moment

And it seems like I seem right and all these ladies know it

Yet I somehow lack that one main component

So fuck 'em

I'll face them no need to duck em when you can replace what's lost

But this loss has my left foot falling off

The edge witht he right one ready to follow

Head strong but right now it feels like my heart is hallow

Is there one that I can borrow until tomorrow because things will change then

No need for a girlfriend in the middle of this whirlwind

But how can I pretend

To be a love interest when I act like I just wanna be ya friend

I break no rules but a few of them I will definitely bend

Like the times I open my mouth and the truth is down so deep within it

That it spills out, before you know it I'm finished

And the opportunity has diminished

And I apologize if I'm being honest when I tell you you're best quality is your eyes

And you ask "well what about my mind?"

Then I reply "well I mean you do have lovely eyes, and I don't wanna lie"

Hung up

Ran up on a overly done up young buck

And wasted my time?

Nah because at times her and I had the time of my life

But I lost it and right now it's something I can't seem to find

Which makes me think that I never really had it to begin with

So the feelings that I was feeling could have all been lies...

The Reason

I still see you when my eyes are closed
I hear you piercing through the silence
I've learned through love so much violence
From an emotional standpoint
And right now I can't pinpoint the cause of all this
"Getting over you" is what they call this
When I signed up I didn't ask for all this, or maybe I did
You learn love is beautiful as a kid
But the truth somehow hidden
Love is pain, whoever said that wasn't kidding
Line after line I have written
In the hopes the letters will erase what I can't seem to be forgetting
I guess I'm living, because this feels like death
I beat this idea over and over until there is none left
To the point that I'm fatigued and out of breath
What's left?
Hopefully a friendship that's why I had to end this
Constant conversation because you being my ex
And new found friend had too close of a relation
I couldn't appreciate you for who you are
Because the distance between "then" and "friends" wasn't too far
So this is the distance I believe is needed
And I apologize if you feel cheated
A letter to you, part of me kinda hopes you read it
To give you explanation that I couldn't explain
Because honestly from yesterday to today, I feel the same
Pain, confusion, all kinds of stuff
This is tough
But in my mind it feels right and necessary
You probably feel so secondary in a line of importance in mind
Well you're right about that
But know that leaving you is the best way for you to get me back...

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"Love Guilt"

Her face isn't like yours, but her body is so similar

I don't know what I'm doing yet this dance feels familiar

In the wrong but it feels so right

Time flying into the morning sun through the moon's night...

That feeling of "awkward" is reaking off me

Body language was what was spoken so right now I have no urge for talking

Shame found on the sidewalk in which I'm walking down

Silence surrounds me, noise I try to drown it out

At the time there was little doubt; my how it changes

Heavy blinking because I keep seeing changing faces

Hers then yours, yours then hers, I can't seem to escape this

It could be my guilt getting the best of me

Or my heart creating some terrible gut wrenching recipe.

Sideways sickness I'm feeling through my soul

How could I do something and expect for her to never know

I have to tell her though back home is the last place I wanna go

I stroll down the avenue

Thinking of every scenario that could be made and trying to prepare

The reality of it is I'm really scared

That night of passion didn't have a single shred of care in it

Her eyes mesmorizing as I stared in them

Those legs stretched throughout my mind, I can't forget them.

Choked up

As I take the key and go up ready for my fate

Feeling like I'm on death row and today is my date

To be strapped to the table and injected

I've neglected the fact that I have something wonderful when I come back

Haulted by something on my door

It's a note she left me and it reads

"I found somebody else, and I think it'd be best if you just tried to forget me

-Love"

And nothing more.



NBA Scores (Nov. 2)

Scores

76ers vs. Wizards

116-115

Wizards: J. Wall 29 Pts, 2 Reb, 13 Ast, 9 Stl

Hawks vs. Cavs

100-88

Cavs: J. Hickson 31 Pts, 5 Reb, 1 Stl

Celtics vs. Pistons

109-86

Celtics: K. Garnett 22 Pts, 6 Reb, 2 Ast, 1 Stl, 2 Blk

Wolves vs. Heat

97-129

Heat: L. James 20 Pts, 12 Ast, 2 Stl, 1 Blk

Blazers vs. Bucks

90-76

Blazers: L. Aldridge 14 Pts, 8 Reb, 2 Ast, 4 Stl, 5 Blk

Grizzlies vs. Lakers

104-125

Grizzlies: R. Gay 30 Pts, 4 Reb, 3 Ast, 1 Stl, 1 Blk

 

"High Tide"

The first time is a reminder of the worst time

Should have known something was wrong by the way it started

Something in common yet so departed and separated

Pumped at the fact I was actually able to make, in your phone

Looking back at now, boy was I wrong

Because even though the sexual attraction was strong something was lost

Definitely felt like something was off, and it ended up being me

Unable to actually see the reality of what this was to me

Because I was lost in what this was for you

So somehow you were able to completely warp me in your vision

Felt like LeBron James when he had to make "The Decision"

Headed to South Beach.

I need some sort of outreach program because I'm lost in what I don't understand

And sadly on the surface it seems so simple and plain

Forgetting the game

Is being played 365 and even when sleep

Analyzing my behavior and speech trying to find something to point out then tweak

Within a week I was able to feel weak

With the weekend as a release as I found a way to gain peace.

Not empty but definitely missing a piece, of mind

But I can have that filled as I've managed to keep my mind

So in due time

It'll be the tides that'll turn and the water will roll in

No more sand on the beach that because a frequent

What am I teaching?

Nothing unless you feel like I'm preaching then it's a lesson

Stress man.