"New Love + Lost Love"

That love that we had then

Ain't this love we have now

Let me find out

The lust that I had for you

Has now turned into gratitude

Feelings that I had about your attitude

Faded away when I had to do

What's best for me

And what's best for you

One day I hope there's room for us to do

Something on a friendship level

Those rocks in road now turned to pebbles

I wasn't hearing my heart too well

Just had to adjust my levels

Felt the bass on my face

But my mind had trouble with the treble

Food for thought I guess

For you I have much respect

But back then I guess I was just a rebel

So in so many words I guess I'll tell you

Exactly how I feel

You helped me get through college

And that's realer than real

Nobody can take that

Without your help I'd be skinny and held back

So with everything in me

I'd like to say to you

I loved you then

But right now I have a new love for you...

ode to the race

Wheels spinning
Mind moving at the same speed
Get money by any means
Is the decree that is mine
I need a degree in gettin money
With money everything is fine
That's why I want more than I actually need
All these fucki n bill collectors I gotta feed
Sallie Mae just keeps calling my crib
Can a nigga breathe
Let me be
When I get paid you'll get a piece
But you won't give me peace in return
Want everything from me
So I keep on grinding
Time after time again
I keep finding
Myself between a rock and a hard place
This here's a hard race
It's this paper chase I'm on
Got me running around the city from the morn
To the dawn
Tell me what you on?
I'm trying to get mine before I'm gone
If that means I gotta do some wrong
For me to get on
Imma do it
Not Big Sean
But like Sean "I do it"
Not new to the game
True to the game
I will prove it...

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gutter dreams

Bills piling up
Need this money quick
Down to my last
Can't afford to even get sick
Another day away from work
Shit stresses me out
Gotta fill my tank
And put food in my mouth
Sister needs some money
How am I gonna work this out?
Because if her rent ain't paid
She's gonna get kicked out
Cellphone next week
Sallie Mae like everyday
Harassing my family
Even after they get paid
Lawyer fees
On top of legal fines
I'm so close to losing my mind
Got me thinking about buying that 9
And making someone's check mine
I'm on that red line
Close to the damn edge
I'm tired of living this ife
I gotta do anything for this bread...

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beginning to N...

She's claiming that she's ready
So many lies
Her heart won't hold steady
So she tries other guys
But that amounts to nothing
Give it the college try
Wishing that this will turn to something
Or blossom into what it's meant to
We'll see what happens after we end up doing nothing
What do you want me to give you?
A relationship hard to put in words
Feelings hard to describe
A passion pouring out
Unspoken bond
Sexuality we really can't hide
But outsiders notice it
We don't speak on it
But we know exactly what this is
Going all the way in
I'm giving you my all
I'm betting all my poker chips
Soft words of lust rolling off your lips
Slow winding from your hips
Holding on strong
But if I start to lose my grip
And my hands start to slip
Imma put you on
I'll put you in a bear hug
Feeling this rare love
How do I say it
If we're playing a game
How do I play it
I wanna express myself
But how do I say it?
I guess I gotta think it over
And get my thoughts together
Keep my composure
Emotions in check is best
And as much as I wanna be like "whatever"
This feeling is real
This beat similar to my heart's rhythm
I don't know I should feel
Can you tell me what is next
Probably not
It's just a guess
Man this shit is ill...

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$$$

I need some money
To help me with this grief
If I had some money
Sallie Mae would stop calling me
Because she's been calling
And harassing my family
But if I paid her on time
Her calls would be few and far between...

But I don't know if the ground beneath my feet is gonna hold
At any moment I might feel a shake in the road
I just keep on moving without knowing where I need to go
But if I stay positive I'm guessing that's how things will go...

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"gang greed"

Some say it's not about the money
So what the hell are we doing here?
Because what was told to me
And made very clear
That if it don't make dollars
Then it don't make sense
Because when times get hard
And days get intense
I'm gonna need my money
I'm gonna need my chips
And if that makes me an asshole
Because I'm concerned about my cash flow
Well then I guess I'm an anus
And I'm dumpin on you punks
That's as real as it gets
Until the day I'm someone famous...

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empty pages filled

We all have dreams
Some of them shattered
We listen to opinions
And rarely do they matter
So we keep on striving
Looking for something better
Bringing umbrellas
In case there's rainy weather
That's why we cheer when the sun's out
And cry when it storms
Then pray that Jesus will come out
But if he never shows
At least then we'll know
That our prayers might have been heard
I guess there's some doubt
So we hold on to the words
Used in Bible
This life's about survival
So many people dead inside
This is your revival
I won't say resurrection
Don't want a misunderstanding
No misconceptions
Of exactly what it is that I'm saying
You can't lose if you're not playing
So your voice can't be heard
Until you start praying
Or until you start saying
What's ever on your mind
I've seemed to have lost mine
So this time is for me to look
I'm in a crunch for time
Hearts stolen like a crook
Lessons learned in my life
My experiences are a good book
If you don't believe me
Then I urge you to take a look
And read past the cover
A book like no other
I love my life
And life's a bitch
So that makes her my lover...

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