Dinner alone...

Even though you're gone
I still need to say
Why I did what I did
And why I acted that way
Feelings get lost
When you start to say
That we aren't working and that we should part ways
At a lost for words
My heart's turning cold
Trying to be strong
I'm trying to hold on
I just wish I could have said
This instead of this song
Now I'm talking to myself
Because you have moved on...

What am I missing
Between me and you?
What am I missing
Who do I turn to?
Now I'm eating alone
When it used to be for two
All of my nightmares
Are now coming true...

No one here now, I don't know what to do
My heart is so heavy
I don't think I can move
I know I told you lies
Instead of the truth
I guess I just feared
What it is that you'd do
Or the words that you'd say
The mean things you say you'd do
Wanted to call your bluff
Until the night you had to prove
That you were not bluffing
The things that you do
Now involve him
Because I'm no longer with you...

KR.MA

Should I feel bad when I'm just being honest

Taking part in something that honestly you started

I could say that a trip to this planet would be nice

But I guess I'm just being modest with that

Let me tell you what it's like

Often imagined the other side of your moons

And what it'd be like to be close enough to run my hands on each groove

Let me stop it before I take

To flight on my spaceship there just to escape

Though I've been invited it is a trip that'll have to wait

I just haven't had the desire or the time

But if I close my eyes and really give it a try

I can feel myself landing onto your surface

An unfamiliar feeling trapped inside of me

Will you have the pleasure of being pleasured by the other side of me

The confidence I keep intrigues you

Unless the sun you hold is just a lie to me

Questions you won't ask

Are similar to the ones I want to explore

Though the answers that you provide to me

Take care of that in one swoop

I'm wanting to learn more about this wonderful planet

Let me take a closer look.

"Sunday Stroll"

Am I losing those close to me

Or is this how it's supposed to be?

Because I'm striving for a time where people make a toast for me

A party that I can enjoy

They host for me

But right now there's no choice for me

But the voice in me

Let's me know that this yellow brick road

Is full of life experiences as long as I continue to stroll

And through each moment I begin to learn

Continue to grow

You already know

So it's something else I don't have to teach

No wasted words, so need for me to preach

In the hopes that these words reach

A broader audience than just friends

The same ones that I used to get in with

Seem like I'm separating myself from them

How am I supposed to feel this?

Or is this just a part of the process

I'll have to let you know when it's over

Because I'm not ready to stop yet

"Magic"

A kind of person we had never seen

A 6'9 rookie from Michigan State, playing PG

No look passes

One of a kind

The hunger of lion with a warrior like passion

A ring on his mind after capturing the college crown

With all the lights and the cameras

Focused on him in Tinsel Town.

The finals in Philly

The game after you lost Kareem

That brand new rookie point guard

Who should probably have played the 3

Played all five positions that night

Something we couldn't believe

Scoring 42 points with 15 boards

And winning the Finals MVP.

Then came those Celtics

And all your battles with Bird

A player with a loud game

But was rarely ever heard

Who you had to beat in college to get that chip

That blonde haired white boy

All the way from French Lick

Over time became your friend

After a Converse commercial when you two clicked.

Life was treating you great

You were dominating the game

Winning five NBA titles

While becoming a household name

11 All-Star appearances 

Winning league MVP three different times

Until you made that announcement in 1991

That affected so many lives...

You told the world you had HIV

And you had to walk away from the game you adored

Leaving behind a legacy

That had room for so much more.

You vowed that you would fight this disease

For the remainder of your life

And that luckily you were the only one who caught it

Cookie and your daughter were alright.

It's been 10 years since you announced it

And you still look like you're in good health

Building movie theaters and TGI Fridays

Accumulating a lot of wealth.

But your passion is basketball

So you're an analyst on the side

Showing us proof that Magic isn't real

Because you haven't disappeared from the virus

You've actually managed to thrive.

So to Magic Johnson I say to you

From a fan of yours indeed

You have shown the world that your life isn't over

Even if you have contracted the virus of HIV

Incredible Women

Did I let a good one go? No

I let a great one fly

All I did was teach her direction

And pointed upwards to the sky

Told her that right there is her limit

And as soon as she gets that high

To go a little higher

She could get there if she tried.

Did I leave a good one hurt? No

I taught a great one pain

And expressed my emotions

And told her we're not the same

Told her that there's someone for her

Who won't treat her the same

But will treat her the way she deserves

The only difference, is he won't have my name.

Did I leave a good one lost? No

I let a great one find her way

Explained to her I can't hold her hand

And that today will be like so many days

That you may not understand

And though I can't stay

I am confident in knowing you'll be able to find your way.

Did I leave a good one with no answer? No
I let a great one think it out
Because though we would never fight
There was so much for us to talk about
Body language spoken loudly
But words coming few and far between
I knew she'd be okay
I just focused on getting her to believe.

Did I lie to a good one? No

I kept it real with one that's great

Told her that as much as I'm interested in her

I'm not the one she should date

Between the gap of age and experience

There's a reason we should wait

So don't let your love for me be distorted

By all of your spiteful hate.

Did I leave a good one confused? No
I helped a great one use her smarts
That underneath that ditsy personality
Is someone with a great heart
Great at getting "A's"
But with the streets not so smart
But she believes in her abilities
And that right there is a start.

Do I often run into good women? Yes

But I build relationships with the ones that are great

It's a combination of personality

Timing and morals

That allow me to state

That there was love there at some point

There just isn't that now

But all of you women are incredible

I just apologize for telling you now...

"Confession/Destiny" video by Eighty4 Fly

This is the latest video from Seattle artist Eighty4 Fly. Check it out, he's been burning up the NW scene for a minute. Next to blow up, I'd put money on it!!

lord hear my cries

I'm ready to give up
I'm about one more step away from throwing it all away
Pride I keep throwing up
As I try to swallow that pill time and time again.
Facing jail time for lack of hours served
Mom's fiance getting on my nerves
Making just enough money for gas to get to work
Sallie Mae blowing up my phone asking for their money
And I don't wanna be on this earth...
Thought about robbing a bank real quick
Selling weed in the hopes I can make a quick flip
But I have a college degree so I shouldn't have to be on that shit!
Resume sent more times than called back
Wondering where all the jobs are at
I enjoy what I'm doing but I get no hours so part of me is screaming what's the point?
I make no money to pay these bills
The possibility of jail time is getting too real
And right now the only thing I feel
Is nothing at all...
Something's gotta give
I'm feeling dead while I'm forced to try to live
All I've done to this world was give give give
In the hopes it returns the favor and I'm still waiting.
I'm supposed to be known
I'm not supposed to live at my parents home
I'm supposed to be doing something great with my life
Not fuckin writing poems on my phone at 1AM.
I don't know how much more I can take
I'm just about ready to break
So Lord if you're listening, I beg of you to help me
I'm lost looking for a way to escape..

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